Write One Leaf About Changing Your Mind

Just going to post my collection of "leaves" from the last couple of
months. Most of were without planning and completely unedited. They
were just a bit of fun.

How do you take that back? He’s probably gotten past me by now, moved right along with his life, found himself a new woman. Rebound. Well, it’s not really a rebound if we never had a relationship in the
first place. It’s just a replacement. Someone else to think about when
he’s cold and lonely at night. If only I knew that he was loving me. If
only he gave me some time to think.

You might disagree. If you loved him you wouldn’t have needed time to think. If that’s your opinion, goddamn you to hell. Have you ever been in my position? Well, perhaps you have. But you’re not me. And maybe you’re
still having trouble realising what exactly my position is.

Well, my best friend just told me that he loves me. Yeah, loves me. None of this crush crap. Nope, he cut straight to the point with the big L word. I think that’s what really threw me off. That and the
whimsical free-verse poetry. At least I hope it was free-verse. If he
intended it to be true poetry, he was way off. God, I could never date
someone so challenged and frightened by words and sentences. Well now I
can’t date him at all.

All because I said I had to think about it. All because a ran away from an immediate response. I needed some time away from all of the noise, to work out what I thought about this. And when I came to
realise that he is all I’ll ever need, he was gone. Well, his body was
still there but his ears were closed and his mind was switched off. He
wouldn’t hear my words, what he thought were lies constructed from
pity. And now I have no one.